What's The Best Way To Kill Yourself?

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A couple of horrifying suicides have made headlines lately--the Yale student who leapt to his death from atop the Empire State building and the gay wrestler who downed a batch of pills to permanently relieve his pain.

It's a tragedy that anyone ends up feeling that self extinction is the only way to go.

But if you somehow felt you HAD to end your life, wouldn't jumping jeopardize other people's lives too?

Might you not squash grownups, babies, and innocent rodents in the process?

At least that kind of a plummet is a surefire way to end your own life, if that's what you've determined to do.

The worst thing ever would be to pop some pills in a suicide attempt and fail at it! You'd wake up incredibly depressed like before but with the added onus of being a semi vegetable!

So what's the best way to do it, where you're guaranteed to terminate your life and no one else's?

Hanging in drag? Slicing your ankles? Unrefrigerated mayonnaise?

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trishaa.vega
trishaa.vega

You stupid fucks need to stop feeling sorry for yourselves, life does not revolve around you. God will not give you anything you can't handle so quit all your whining

trishaa.vega
trishaa.vega

You fucks need to quit all your whining, quit feeling sorry for yourselves, life does not revolve around you, God will not give you anything you can't handle

9678192
9678192

58 Yrs old. wicked divorce in 99, constant job losses in the bad economy of the first decade of this century.  Never found another companion, had gotten custody of my 4 kids and spent a decade trying to raise them. Guess I failed because here I am.. Good physical health, struggled with temp jobs and small business of my own at 55, massive stroke, no insurance. Told I was a miracle, should have died. not totally wiped out, walking and talking, brain severely damaged, but no medical help for over a year, thought I was lucky. Two years ago, all hell breaks loose. Body starts to fall apart on left side, pain is off the scale as nerve connections re-attach. Brain capacity reduced, depression gets real dark. Normal for right frontal lobe damage, but I don't know that 

spend every penny looking for help, takes one full year to get any welfare help. had been laid off due to economy so not working when stroke hit, thus I am not entitiled to disability.. SS throws me a bone and I get SSI $700 a month. Can't keep my house with that, lose house, lose retirement fund, lose cars, friends, life is over. End up in sad, ugly mobile home that was built when I was in high school.


nothing left. Everything I ever owned is gone. I was  world class auto mechanic and electronics engineer, but not with this brain damage, and physical disability, no hands, no legs no way to ever work again Typing this message is pure torture.

My future? Totally alone. no way to find a woman and why would she want someone who is my age, and condemened to welfare for the rest of his life. Money from ditching home of 25 years is gone. now have to pay rent for trailer lot, which leaves me with about$50 a week. Can't pay property tax, can't pay to keep my cars insured or maintained. Would really enjoy a new bed, as mine is really crappy. I will never have more than $50 a week for the rest of my life. There is no way to describe the chronic pain from the thousands of broken nerve connectsion healing wrong as I am told always happens. Its been three years sinc I have felt my face, or been able to run a brush across my head without searing pain Crippled and walking is pure torture. My brain is severely broken in so many ways. My future is easy to see. its welfare, and a few bucks, never anything new, and when anything breaks in this crappy house, like m washing machine, I can't afford anyone to fix it. I spent my life fixing such things, was great at it, now incapable. 

I am angry as the medical world cannot help. there are not pain solutions, after two years of seeking them. There is no life to stay around for. I can't think of how to kill myself. I only know I dread trying to sleep with the pain, and hate the mornings. It takes about ten minutes to button my shirt.

Been in torturous pain for over two years,, no one can relieve it. 

 Why bother? Totally alone, tired of going to doctor alone, hearing bad news, and no one to share it with No idea how to find help. Have cancelled all my med appts, and intend to stay at home and waste away. Legs are gone from atrophy and no t being used. Entire body breaking down as muscles fail and waste away.. no one cares, why should I

This is too long, not gonna proof read it, eyes failing from nerve damage anyway..


LonelyGirl
LonelyGirl

I completely understand how you feel. I'm not even 38 yet and have severe back pain and nerve damage due to degenerative disc disease, spinal stenosis, scoliosis (which I've had ever since I got hit by a car when I was 11), and Fibromyalgia. I also have Gastroparesis, which is just a fancy term for a paralyzed stomach, which means that even eating is torture for me most of the time. If what I eat actually does stay down, it causes me severe abdominal pain, so it's easier most of the time for me to live on liquids. I also forgot about the torn meniscus in my left knee and it also appears that I have degenerative joint disease in the rest of my joints as well. And to think that before all this BS happened to me, I was an Emergency Medical Technician, or Professional Ambulance Jockey as I preferred to call myself. And now each day is nothing but pain, and has been for the past 8 years. I became an EMT when I was 20 and had to quit when I was 33 because my back is too bad. I cannot work at all and yet I keep getting denied SSD. I am married, but I can tell my husband is fed up with all of my health problems. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone in your pain and suffering. I'm walking the same road you are, not exactly the same, but pretty darn close. I truly hope you're still around, because someone does care: I do. I hope you reply back.

LonelySoul
LonelySoul

Everyone so lonely here, wanting to die, let's make a chat room and talk about it... a suicide room in mibbit or something

modagems
modagems

I want to die. How do I kill myself painlessly? I was thinking of oding on heroin but getting drunk first so I cant feel anything. Just slide into nothingness.

emsym14
emsym14

@modagems No, do NOT OD on heroin if you haven't already. From my friends at the ER ODing on Heroin is one of the worst ways to go.

bobby
bobby like.author.displayName 1 Like

I know the most peaceful way to die but... I'd feel guilty knowing someone may have taking my advice... anyway it involves sleeping and well.. never waking up.

modagems
modagems

I want to know how should i end it. Im tired of living an meaningless life. I dnt want to look at my ugly face or body again.

shifforbrains
shifforbrains

Look people. It may sound crazy, but we are all going to die. What's the hurry? Have you not had someone, a relative, distant friend, someone you know who has died recently? Go to a cemetery. There are many, many people that have already died under your feet. You too will also be dead, but what the fuck is the hurry? You get only one chance on this stupid fucking merry-go-round and suddenly the ride is over. There is no second chance. Be grateful for living now as you are experiencing a much more fascinating  life than most humans that have ever lived. This is your only chance, so don't be a stupid fuck-up and waste the opportunity of eternity! You were dust and will be dust in just a couple of decades, no matter what. Don't fuck it up now shithead!

amesm12345
amesm12345 like.author.displayName 1 Like

@shifforbrains I've already fucked my life up and yes it is more fascinating than third world lives but it also sucks. I don't see myself ever being happy, just bored. I don't want to be bored for what feels like eternity. I'm the epitome of laziness and I do not very much feel the need to contribute to society; one less person will not make any difference. By the way, looking at life as generically as a merry-go-round makes me wonder if you are depressed, because an optimistic person feels that life is much more than just a time limit. I don't want to be ridiculed, I didn't ask for help or someone to talk to, just a method. The only people with the incite I desire have already died obviously...

shifforbrains
shifforbrains

So I have always had this fear. If I jump off a 20 story building, and just after jumping I change my mind- would that moment be more terrifying than living with my miserable and insignificant life? It is perhaps a survival instinct, but I cannot get over the terror of knowing I am about to die and I made a stupid mistake. Maybe I am not ready yet.

brianbakerjr1946
brianbakerjr1946

@shifforbrains you could be like my uncle who tried the jumping thing coupled with pills and a slit wrist. He did say that he was a screw up, he even screwed up his super suicide attempt he did not cut his wrist deep enough, he has a seeing problem and took the wrong pills and when he jumped aiming for the pavement but some how managed to hit a wall and slid the rest of the way. Had I not witnessed it myself along with his wife and eldest son, I would not have believed it... he was not meant to die that day

Terra
Terra

we were taught how to survive but not live

Terra
Terra

we were taught how to survive but not live

Terra
Terra

we were taught how to survive but not live

tmtjever
tmtjever

i think that if we realy want to die we would not be on here.........i am on here just to see why people want to die cause i had 3 people overdose i will not go out like that god will take me not myself

amesm12345
amesm12345

@tmtjever God? Hahahahahahaha. religion is just a worldwide cult looking for more members. I understand that "god" won't answer everyone's every wish but couldn't he/she have at least given people common sense? I mean do you see Ethiopia and Cuba and other countries where people live in misery under someone else's will. "God", makes me laugh; if it was real, why are there multiple religions? Believing one is correct falsifies the others.

target81
target81

Best way to kill yourself would be to save someone and get killed at the same time. That way you are not being selfish, you are simply wanting to end your misery while helping someone live, and hopefully enjoy their life. Of course the catch 22 is that if you can save people then you might feel like your are actually worth something, and not be so quick to want to off yourself.

amesm12345
amesm12345

@target81 that kind of arrogance doesn't last long at all. But I agree with the rest of your statement.

dddd3
dddd3

Is walking onto train tracks a good way to go down or what?

rebeccabex87
rebeccabex87

If you took about 15 or so Vicodin (hydrocodone), then maybe 15 Trazadone, 15 or so Colnazepam, and 12 Alprazolam, do you think that would be enough? What would be the best drink to chase it all with? I haven't decided anything for sure yet, but I want to have my options at the ready. Thanks in advance.

tmtjever
tmtjever

@rebeccabex87  do you know that works are you just fucking with us, i thimk if you realy want to die we would not be on here

greens421
greens421

I'm not here to complain about my life. I have my reasons. Basically, I'm evil and I want to do everyone who has the burden of knowing me or having to come into contact with me a favor and just off myself. I feel its a service to society. I'm not going to complain to anyone I know about this or give anyone any warning. I just want to know the best way to do it in a pain free manner. I also don't want a mutalated body.

drew1982
drew1982

You are all dirty mongrels, you shoould be talking people OUT of suicide NOT encouraging it. I hope the authorities gain all your IP address and charge you with crimes. Bunch of muppets

amesm12345
amesm12345

@drew1982 OK well suicide should not be a crime. People go to abortion clinics why are there no suicide clinics?

mdc777
mdc777

No job, no car, no gal, no close friends, no one to miss me...I will find a way before Christmas.  Defiantly time to pull the plug.  I spend almost every waking minute tossing around ideas.  Someone, anyone give me a good clue.  53 not wanting to be 54

shoedog12
shoedog12

@mdc777 dam no car. Hang yourself. if you way 200 lbs or so you only need a 5ft drop. good luck.

Florzinnha
Florzinnha

@shoedog12 shut up, piece of shit. go fuck yourself

shifforbrains
shifforbrains

@Florzinnha @shoedog12  I am dead already. Some call us zombies. Some call us the undead. We are trapped in limbo forever and will come after you. I hung myself, shot myself in the chest, guzzled a jug of anti-freeze and I am still suffering this miserable after-life. Suicide will only bring an eternity of misery.

whizzlecreations
whizzlecreations like.author.displayName 1 Like

@mdc777 life is tough man; I wanna kill myself all the time. I work a dead ende corporate serving job with a degree. I'm big time in debt, broke, no chick, recovering alcoholic, hate where I live, no opportunities.

I found out this site lookin to off myself.

Nobodies happy, nobody is doing exactly what they want. Opportunities are fewer and fewer.

Here's the solution;

Stop focusing on what's wrong and oh poor me. We have running water, access to hospitals, public transportation, and I've learned have to be more resourceful.

I am not a religious person, but I recommend goin to church to meet a lady, volunteer at a Salvation Army to gain some perspective. There is peace of mind in being altruistic and putting others needs above our own.

Get some exercise,and think positive...or just get it oVerwith already whiner

amesm12345
amesm12345

@whizzlecreations I have had that feeling but it doesn't last. It actually feels awkward. Your so called "SOLUTION" is void.

icp8558
icp8558

@mdc777 i'm listening to you .you just been noticed by me hey you want to talk to someone i know i do i'd like to hear from you reply back plz

Bewareofdoctors
Bewareofdoctors like.author.displayName 1 Like

The Absolute Best way to kill yourself,  Is to catch a Cold & go see an american Doctor.

jessie8883
jessie8883

I've tried to kill myself, even thought about it today when I came across this blog. As I sat here reading all the comments I realized if I wanted to die so badly I would just do it, like most of the people here. It is not that hard to jump in front of a car, jump off a tall building, tie some cinder blocks to the bottom of your feet and drown, watch a thousand ways to die - if I just do what this idiot did on TV I could be dead right now. There are so many possibilities, so many opportunities, I've thought about so many different ways, sometimes I'd get happy just thinking about them. Sometimes when I think about killing myself it helps me to reflect: I Have food in my stomach, I don’t live in parts of Ethiopia, Nigeria, or some other extremely poverty stricken country, I have electricity and a computer or else I wouldn't be writing this shit, I'm also not mentally handicapped, I have all my appendages, I see, I can hear, I'm breathing, holy shit I'm alive that has to account for something, and lastly there's people that love me not many but they're still out there. People are here to reach out to one another. If you really wanted to die, if you really wanted to kill yourself, you wouldn't be sitting here typing or reading, you’d be out there shooting yourself in the head or stabbing yourself in the armpit, eyeball, or heart. Neither YOU nor I are  pussies for not killing ourselves we are fucking warriors for living, for not taking the easy road out because life is the hardest thing that we will have to overcome. For everyone that is going through a hard time, everyone who can't get a break, who's been taking a beating all their life from life, I wish you all the best of luck. People need to support each other in time of need because we are all in this shity ass boast together. I'd like to also add for all the people that have been mean or rude to other people on this blog I think you should go fuck yourself.

amesm12345
amesm12345

@jessie8883 people with depression go on these sites so that they don't feel so alone. Also, depression is pretty much a mental disability... the only cure is death

rockme99
rockme99

@jessie8883 Hey, just wanted to say thanks for posting your comment. It kinda got me re-thinking things.

epykskatin
epykskatin like.author.displayName 1 Like

 @jessie8883 I dont mean to be rude, but people arent you and you arent them.  You dont understand the intensity of the situation that others are in and some of us would rather be that ethiopian child than be in the current state that we're in.  People come here to explain themselves, and if they want help, it wont help.  The only person who can get you out of your own depression is you and if you cant do it, no one else can and thats that.  Theres no selfish external justification for suicide, it just is what it is and if/when it happens it happens.  The person's suffering ends and the selfish people who would rather see them live in pain for the rest of their lives as an emotionally handicap than let them die in peace are more pathetic than they claim the suicidee to be.  

 

I just firmly believe that if youre in a bind in a temporary problem then you really shouldnt kill yourself.  But if youre one of those who just cant see the light ever or those with a permanent dilemma like myself, then you have every right to do what it takes to rid yourself of it rather than keep yourself suffering for nothing.  

 

This is my final post to everyone.  I wish everyone the best of luck, i had a nice time sympathizing with people like me.  Take care of yourselves or "ill see you later".

whizzlecreations
whizzlecreations

@epykskatin @jessie8883 typical American horse feathers. We can all relate whether rich, poOre, or in between. Life sucks; that's the 4 fold truths of Buddhism in a nut shell. We think everything should be handed to us, and we get upset over a dumb bitch, or johnnie got the promotion I deserve. Fuck outta here; hungry? Go to a McDonald's trash can; a flippin buffet in there. No girl? Maybe it's not your time. No job; volunteer somewhere and you'd be surprised. Get over yourself fag; were all the fuckin same whether nigger cracker spic or chink snitch ass

jessie8883
jessie8883

 @epykskatin

When I think Ethiopian I think: starving child, that has lost their parents to aids, who have to take care of their siblings even though they’re a child themselves, who have no clean water, live in a straw hut with a dirt floor, with torn clothing and no shoes, and flies climbing on their little faces. I don't think many people would choose that option but I guess there might be some people out there that would.

Epykskatin- I hope that this is not your last post, that you do come back to this website, and that you don't do anything terrible. It sounds like you’re trying to justify why it's ok for you to commit suicide. Now more than ever gay people and transgender people are accepted in society but you have to accept yourself first. This is what makes you different; it's what makes you who you are. I hope you can learn to be proud of yourself, to love yourself, and to know that you are important. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

target81
target81

@jessie8883 @epykskatin Ethiopian children probably don't have time to ponder why they exist, or question why they can't get ahead in life, why they can't meet the perfect girl or guy, or what medication will help them forget how truly miserable life can be. They only have time to survive, they definitely wouldn't question how to kill themselves, they are dying, and so in a way they don't have it so bad. Our society is so full of shit, we survive so well that our brains have too much time to question, and on top of it we are all alienated with our computers.

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